Publication
I’m so excited to announce that one of my poems has been accepted for publication from https://peekingcatpoetry.co.uk
I’m getting published to their website June 6th and will be in an upcoming print edition! I can’t explain how exciting this is for me. I have been writing for years and finally decided to take a little chance and make a submission for publication. This is such awesome news.
Blogging into nothingness
I’ve tried to find a place for my words
So many pages aging yellow
Gathering dust
Crumbling in the corner in my room
Forgotten in a file on a phone
Or left about strewn in pages
Notebooks covered in fragments of my life.
A dream to publish to tell my story
Even to one soul.
Rather than scattered remnants and memories.
Thouser copyright 4/4/19
Lonely numbers
Each inseparable friend
Has now uprooted
Causing me to feel a chasm
Uneasy in my loneliness
I never spoke up much anyway
I listen more than share
I create too much concern
When discussing my morbid loss
Sessions with me are one sided
I withhold inner truths
Thouser copyright 3/20/19
Exhaustion
I never realized how tired I was
Until my eyes began to burn
And ache with sheer urge
To close squeeze lashes
Soften tears sclera bathed
Hushed memories hushed mind
Sleep at last.
THouser. 2/9/19
Eggshell
If my shell splinters or crackles
Spiderwebs into tiny minuscule pieces
Any further
My contents will emerge
Splatter melt tumble aloft
The rubble that’s left
Memories of me scattered onto the floor
Copyright 12/28/18 Thouser
Lingered at the door
A conversation that I could hold onto for days.
I miss the comfort of our friendship.
Loneliness seeps into bones
A dull throbbing ache
Copyright 12/23/18 Thouser
Guilt
I shouldn’t be thankful
That the screams that echo
From the office with closed doors
Isn’t directed at me for once
Copyright 12/19/18 Thouser
He’s going to fire me soon
hands shake
Anxiety envelopes
Tears drop
Eyelashes wet
Nose drips
Tissues crumble
Bowed at desk
Booming voice
Boss screams
Hyperventilating
Hiding in the screens
Please stop crying
He will see
Why am I so weak?
I just asked a question
Please stop crying
Please
Please
I can’t breathe
I need this job
Thouser
Copyright 12/18/2018
Should have known better
It was a facade.
Should have known in all actuality.
That no real beauty exist there.
It felt nice though.
To feel wanted for a moment.
I gave him my number.
First time I’ve done that in years.
Felt the confidence.
He never called.
I was proud for a moment.
Until I realized he was flirting for a tip.
Thouser
12/17/18
Copyright 2018